I am feeling increasingly lost. My voice echoes in my head, a single bell in a vast canyon. And in that single ringing bell resides a thousand screaming voices. They claw at each other, each vying to be heard. They drown each other out until I can hear everything and simultaneously nothing at all. I have lost my center, my core. My soul has no focal point. I have lost any ability to communicate with myself. Where. am. I? It is as if I am living separate from myself. I have ceased to understand anything. I am being pushed around by the waves of academia- I am drowning in high-brow theories and detached ideas. They crash over my head and I am forced to swallow-- I feel the salty burn race down my throat and into my nose. I can no longer touch the ground- my whole body aches to stand with feet firmly planted in reality.

I am being pulled...pulled...away.