Say (All I Need)

Welp, here we go. I suppose this blog is really only for myself. It's not like I'm going to advertise it. I'm not even sure how someone would find//read this.

But I have recently started a new journey in life, and my brain gets so cluttered that I've realized how badly I need somewhere to get it all out.

I've attempted several blogs before, but always ended up abandoning them. I suppose it's because I never really saw any value in them. The only reason I could see having a blog would be useful is for getting attention. That's not what I'm looking for.

So I'm going to do my best to be consistent. Some days I may just chronicle the day's events, other times I may have something specific to write. We'll see where this goes, I suppose. "We" being...me?

I named this blog "An Apathetic Passion" because I feel it pretty accurately describes me and my life. I'm passionate about so many things. Almost anything, actually. Except sports. I'm probably passionate about hating them.

So with all this passion about people, about justice, about life, about poverty, about music, about selflessness, about learning (you get the picture), you'd think I'd do something about it.

That's where the Apathetic part comes in. Right now I'm a freshman at Marquette University, spending thousands of dollars to do....something. But I usually spend my days going to class, eating, watching The Colbert Report, and facebooking. I constantly wonder what good all my passion is if I do nothing about it.

I want to dedicate my life to helping others. I hurt when I think about the people of Latin America and the people of Africa. I hurt when I think of the widespread greed that kills so many. I hurt when I think of war. I don't understand how people can live their lives without getting angered and impassioned about these issues.

I don't understand how people are content in their 9-5 office jobs selling paper (although it does make for a good TV show...) when this globe is pulsating with pain.

And that's what this blog about. One minuscule American girl battling the self-centered greediness her culture has ingrained in her in order to become something greater: a selfless servant of God dedicating her life to loving on her brothers and sisters around the globe.